Routine and change.
The company where I'm working is going through serious problems. Redundancy again? I don't know, but it's being rumoured. Lately I'm a bit scared because in my department the work has dramatically decreased. How long is this going to last?
What would happen if I lost my job? I've been thinking of it during the last weeks. I wouldn't have been worried if it happened some years ago, but now... well, you all know the difficulty of getting a job right now.
Anyway, I'd have an unemployment benefit at the beginning, so the situation wouldn't be extremely serious. That is not what worries me.
Why am I worried now? Changing my job would surely entail a change of routine. I've got used to a routine in the last months. I like my routine. It's comfortable and easy, and I've learnt to love it. Maybe because my routine (and my life) in the last two years was a complete disaster, I've got used to this new one so easily and I've clung to it this way. I'm afraid of a change. I don't want to change something that is working well. At least, it is working well for me.
I guess I'm growing old and becoming a bit more intolerant to changes. Or maybe I'm afraid of losing what I've got.
